It’s a terrible feeling; to feel that you’re not progressing in your relationship with God. There have been times when I sought Him, but he felt far from me. I long to continuously grow in my relationship with God, but sometimes it’s like I hit a road block. I grow frustrated, with Him and myself. If you’ve felt this way too, know you’re not alone.
I don’t have a magic answer as to why or how you got here (only God knows - literally). The following are only a few possible reasons you may feel disconnected from God:
Change isn't neat and pretty. Nope. Change can be messy. As Christians, our desire should be to become more like Christ. Frankly, that requires A LOT of change. When I first started following Jesus I had no idea that progress meant things can look bad when they’re actually being worked of by God. It's like putting a piece of furniture together. At first it’s neatly in a box, but it can't be used that way. So you have to take out all the pieces, which makes a mess, and begin the process. You have to do it in a specific order or it won't work.