Do you ever feel left out? Like your the last one up to be picked, but no one wants on their team? Have you ever waited on God but the wait began to feel like a weight? One that is holding you back from happiness?
I've been there, and more often than I like, I go back on emotional visits.
I don't know what it is you feel left out of, but for me it's relationships. I've been dating, praying, and waiting to meet the right person. I've done the self-work, read the books, been single for years, and followed God's guidance, but there are times in the middle of it all when my flesh fails and my hope feels lost.
Can I be honest with y'all? I just want to feel chosen and cherished by the right person, and I know I'm not the only one.
This process, this waiting has taught me a lot. I've seen the good in people, and the deception. I discovered that I'm stronger than I used to be in some areas, saying no to temptations that once enticed me. I have new strengths and not-so-new weaknesses. More importantly, I realized that when I give up, God doesn't.
A while ago I was crying out to God, pleading for strength and help, and telling him I couldn't handle waiting any longer. I was struggling between knowing better but not wanting to do better, I was the end of myself - ready to take thing into my own hands. Then God, in his infinite wisdom and love, said to me, "If you make a mistake I won't love you any less."
That's not what I thought he'd say. I was expecting a verse that would convict me, but instead he comforted me. I was feeling ashamed and He showed me grace.
If we are faithless, he remains faithful. For he cannot deny himself. -- 2 Timothy 2:13
In that moment I realized that God really does hear our cry and understand our hearts. Now this isn't to say that He approves of our disobedience, but he's not holding our mistakes and sins over us. He longs for us to know the depth of his love and grace, especially in the times when we feel weak.
Truly following God is harder than anything I've ever done because it's a war to keep the faith. It's a struggle to be patient and when you feel "ready". It's hard to be faithful when you keep getting passed over for that promotion or recognition. It's frustrating to feel like you should be making moves in your career or life but keep hearing God say, "Be Still".
Although those things are difficult, they don't change the truth. God is good and faithful to fulfill every promise. He is not man that He should lie. He sees the end from the beginning and loves enough to much to let us settle. His timing is perfect because He is the author of all things.
So whatever you're going through, whatever you're waiting on, DON'T GIVE UP. If you're weak, ask God to be your strength. Don't let doubt make you settle for less than He's promised you. Don't let fear of missing out make you rush into something you're not ready for.
The wait is about BECOMING. It's about growing in your faith, deepening your trust in God, and developing fruit of the spirit. It's not punishment, it's preparation. It's painful at times, but it's beautiful too. Don't despise the wait. Ask God to help you wait with purpose and contentment, and reveal His plan for this season of your life. Then you'll be able to wait well and thrive no matter what it is you're waiting on.
We have this hope as an anchor for the soul, firm and secure. - Hebrews 6:19
All my love,